Can you call it a walk when you’re being dragged? Who walks who again?
Yesterday, We lost our second baby. Our bug. I wasn’t shocked that my body started to end this pregnancy. I had been doing almost daily blood tests that told me this too would be a short pregnancy. But my heart still aches. I remember for so long I would say to Chris, “I just need to get pregnant. Once I’m pregnant we will be fine.” So naive, dear Kayleigh. So naive. Yet again I feel I’ve let my husband down. I feel like this body let this baby down. Part of me knew almost immediately that this wasn’t suposed to be our time. It all seemed so surreal, how easily I got pregnant after our first IUI+Chlomid round. I can only help next round works as easily but that my body is finally ready to nuture a baby to full health. I used to envy those who got pregnant easily. How lucky they were to know they could be pregnant. Well now I know I can be pregnant but that doesn’t seem to make any of this any easier. Bug, I hope you are with Peanut. I hope you two are watching over your Daddy and me. Tell your brother or sister we are ready to meet them and we already love them.
- 2 months ago